Ponderings: Finding time

I’m so busy nowadays that it’s been difficult to find time. Or maybe more accurately, it’s been difficult finding energy that will allow me to utilise those pockets of time I have efficiently.

I like to think that I’m efficient, and it shows in my work, the things I can accomplish when I set myself to do it. But sometimes that spark just go away, and I want nothing better to do than to laze around and not care about the world around me. Unfortunately, much as I do so, it always feel like I’m not resting enough. And on the other hand, I feel like I’m not doing enough, that there’s a lot of time that I’ve wasted not doing anything.

I’m still trying to find that balance, and I suspect I may be too much of a workaholic and dedicating too much time to work. Add in the obligations to other people, I’m barely left with any time for myself.

Art, has taken a backseat in these busy times. I haven’t wrote anything or did much arting recently. At least, not in my art journal. Started a doodle journal recently and some days I’ll just sit down for 10 or 15 min to do something in there. It’s not much, and other art journalers may say it’s better than nothing, but honestly, I feel like it isn’t enough.

I’m trying to do more art and less journaling, if only journaling seemed to have dried out or something. I guess I can only conclude that my life has gotten more boring after adulting. Funny, because I’m supposed to be in the prime of my life and having fun but I feel like a old women with the lack of energy. Is this an introvert thing?

Typing this out on my daily commute. It used to be that I have half an hour of uninterrupted travel that I could type something if I wanted, but my schedule now only offers me 10 minutes. Take 5 minutes to warm up and then the other 5 isn’t really much of a time. And my other journey is usually a sleeping journey because it’s a bumpy ride and I get bad motion sickness. But oh well. Making this work, somehow. Sometimes.

And here’s a photograph, the most artistic thing I’ve done recently that I can find in my phone:

Happy Monday.

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One thought on “Ponderings: Finding time

  1. I really relate to this post. It seems that I am continually tweaking my schedule, trying to figure out how to find time for myself and my creative pursuits. And you’re absolutely right that it’s not enough to find 30 minutes of free time; you have to find 30 minutes when you’re mentally able to focus. Sometimes getting both of those things to occur together is a bit like looking for a four-leaf clove. And that’s on a good day. On the bad days, it’s like trying to spot a unicorn! I don’t have any sage advice for this quest. I only know that for myself, having creative outlets is essential for me to thrive so I keep working to make time for it as best I can.

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